"Take an action each day that alleviates suffering in the world. Bring light into darkness."
-Angeles Arrien

Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished:
If you're alive, it isn't.
--- Richard Bach

I have come to realize more and more that the greatest disease and the greatest suffering is to be unwanted, unloved, uncared for, to be shunned by everybody, to be just nobody [to no one]
--Mother Teresa

We were not separated at your birth.
It was the moment at which we began our journey toward each other
-Nancy McGuire Roche

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Sad, Sad Day

I am totally disgusted today. Some pretty bad things have gone down lately. Some people are being truly hurt by this thing we call International adoption. Adoption should be a wonderful thing right. It should be about adding a child to your family and the extra bonus is your helping that child escape from a life of extreme poverty. Right? That is what I thought. I thought this would be such a wonderful journey full of wonderful moments; well not so. This has been a Journey full of one disappointment after another. A journey of heartbreak and censorship. I thought I was doing something good for the world and our family but I am not so sure anymore. That is all I wanted to do was something good for my family and 2 orphans. Why must this be so hard?

All of you considering International adoption think long and hard. If you decide you are in for the roller coaster ride of your life, Choose your Agency CAREFULLY. You will shed more tears then you could ever think was possible. You will reach all time lows that will hopefully end in all time highs but who knows, nothing is guaranteed. What a screwed up system.

I have no idea what lies ahead of me. I have hope that my children will be coming home at the end of the month. I have been been waiting almost 19 weeks so you would think so right? Not so. I am definitely not as sure as I was 2 weeks ago. A lot has happened in these last 2 weeks. I will never be the same if my children do not come home. I can not even think about that. I will never rest if that happens.


Anonymous said...

I think that many of us assumed that bad things happen to other people, but not us. And as soon as we (in particular) were delayed, we realized that there was a slippery slope between us being okay and us being one of the people bad things could happen to.

I am sorry for your delay. I am sorry that all of this is happening.

Anonymous said...

I think of you every day and hope that you will be united with your children very, very soon!

I love reading your blog and can't wait to read more when you are in Vietnam!

We hope to receive our CFC (we're about 70 days DTV and are waiting for our daughter).

Christy & Doug in IL